Monday, July 16, 2007
8:13 AM
sometimes i question the world.
...a little too much in my little head.
often i start thinking, musing, be it a resultant from the profundity of wise authors' words from a book, or the rambles heard in lit class, or simply the day-by-day (though there isn't many, sadly) gossips.
occasionally there would be the pleasing outcome of an enlightenment,
others, more often than not, would be a leering bottomless pit of depression n overpowering uncertainties that threatens to suck mi deep into it.
of cox i have occured no suicidal thoughts, nor anything abt self-mutilation. (i do not need anything else to 'uglify' mi more, thank you!)
but such sad thought dampened my mood, if not my spirit, n drag mi down significantly.
alrite, i m pondering now.
this is getting mi nowhere.
...hey! i mean i don't get paid for writing such nonsense or rubbish... n i definately do not need psychologists bills written to my already-bankrupt bank account.
maybe i should develop my crap n compile them into a novel! XD
i don't know if thinking profound thoughts, or conjuring the effect of appearing to do so, helps my life...
for mi, as a pathetic slob being in the handcruffs of education in JC, i do not even have to wait to see the disastrous A's results to judge tt it is completely n utterly useless to my grades.
well, excluding improving my 'crapping' skills for 'unprecendented' qns in the exams. - _ -''
so then, now i will snap out (only for a while) of my miserable self-effacing 'mind arguements'.
GOALS. for this wk.
1. Finish NORMAL DISTRIBUTION tutorial by fri.
2. Study econs BALANCE OF PAYMENTS lecture by wed.
3. Study PLATE TECHTONICS n read at least 2 VOLCANOES n EARTHQUAKE CASESTUDIES each. by sat.
Let iT OUT!